Perfection vs. Obedience
on June 23rd, 2021
For most of my life, I followed all rules without question. If there weren’t clear expectations or guidelines in a certain area, I would construct them myself. Constant responsibility and obedience were the only paths I knew that led to a sense of maintaining control and feeling loved. It was a wonder to me that you could have almost anything you wanted in this world by checking every box people wanted you to. Be quieter? Done. Ace every test? You got it. Keep a smile on my face? Easy. Don’t ever do X,Y and Z? I wouldn’t dream of it.
Delicately Crave Depth
on June 18th, 2021
Earlier this year, God gave me the phrase, “Delicately crave depth.” I thought it was beautiful, but didn’t know what the context was surrounding it or how to interpret it.These past six months have been sweet, but not short of sorrows, let-downs and confusion. I have the tendency to let emotions become all consuming. I think it’s really cool that God gave me a capacity to care so deeply, but some...
on June 9th, 2021
I would consider myself a homebody. I like to be home, I like to be by myself at home, I like to do things at home. Home is where I know I can feel comfortable regardless of the situation. But is being alone the same as solitude? I would like to say both yes and no. I’ve been alone in solitude and have felt perfectly comfortable hundreds of times, I personally just really like to spend time by mys...
Balance through Obedience
on June 4th, 2021
According to the dictionary, balance is (n) a condition in which different elements are equal or in the correct proportions or (v) offset or compare the value of (one thing) with another. But how can we apply that logic to the way we live our lives? According to those definitions, we spend a certain amount of time on each of the aspects in our lives that are important, like spending time with fami...
on June 3rd, 2021
It is one of my favorite rhythms of life, not just for what it gives me but for what it reveals within me. Rest forces me to wrestle with my propensity to find my identity from my work and not my God. True Rest, the Sabbath Rest of Jesus (Hebrews 4), restores us back to what we were originally made for: a fullness of life in God. The curse, on the other hand, leads us to operate with the false ide...
Balance in Personal Responsibility
on June 2nd, 2021
To be completely real, this topic is hard for me to even begin to unpack because it’s a genuine struggle for me to find balance. While it is a daily fight for me to find balance, it’s also something I have found a lot of freedom in from advice given to me by others, but more importantly by the Lord. All it took was me finally turning to face Him, and saying something along the lines of “help…I’m k...
Celebrating Asian American and Pacific Islander Month
on May 13th, 2021
What does AAPI month mean to you? AAPI month is about celebrating Asian and Pacific Islanders who have made history in the U.S but it's also celebrating the AAPIs right here in our own community. It's my roommates, it's your classmates, my sister, leaders right here on campus making a difference, the workers at Bolton, your co-workers, and some of my new friends at Wesley. It's about celebrating a...
Pain, Perspective, and Truth
on May 7th, 2021
When I was asked to write a blog entry for Asian-American and Pacific Islander Heritage Month, I wasn’t sure where to start when talking about my experience as an Asian American living in the United States. For many years, my identity as a racial minority was not at the forefront of my focus. Any pain I, or my family, felt from racial discrimination was pushed into my subconscious thought world be...
on April 26th, 2021
Every person on Earth was created for a world of beauty that we can't completely understand or see with our own eyes. Our soul longs for it. Our Spirit searches for it in everything that we do; in everything we see. After spending countless times looking for fullness in empty places, I have learned through the more difficult path of return. However, time after time I am utterly astounded that Jesu...
The Lens of Eternity
on April 19th, 2021
Psalm 30 verse 5 says, “For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.” The idea of pain in the night, but joy in the morning is something I have always related to in my life. We all know the feeling of being up late in your bed at night, thoughts racing, questioning, “God why me? Why am I like this? Why Don’t ...
on April 19th, 2021
For so long, the word transition felt to me like a more gentle way of saying, “abrupt life change.” Growing up, my dad was constantly being transferred to different locations for his job, and I lived in four different states and another country by the time I was 11 years old. The times we moved when I wasn’t too young to comprehend it, my parents would always sit me and my younger sister down and ...
on April 17th, 2021
Yesterday was the first time I saw The Passion of the Christ. Brief synopsis: a two hour long movie graphically visualizing Jesus' crucifixion. It's intense and upsetting, naturally. But what really set me off, what keeps floating to the surface of my mind, what haunts me like a second shadow is the moment when, while hanging on the cross, Jesus speaks.Up to this point, after being whipped 39 time...